The reason I haven't submitted anything in, like, years is because I kind of had this big breakdown on the inside and did not tell anybody, not even my family, about it.
(don't read this if you're in love with the fandom and don't want to think otherwise)
In a way Hetalia gave me comfort but I realised "they're not real, they will never be real" due to me thinking that, I realised I have really high standards and thought "no one will love me" and stuff like that (I could go on but I'm not going to)
Also, I have a really sh*tty past and for a while life right now is going downhill too.
I DEFIANTLY know people are worse off then me but its not like a can compare, right?
I can't just have a conversation like
Random person: my mother passed away recently
Me: I was touched up by our baby sitter since I was 2, lol
Clearly people wouldn't do that unless they're assholes. And I'm not a asshole (hopefully)
So, yeah, although I should have told everyone before, I'm taking a BIIIIG break. Like, I'm leaving and I don't know when I'm coming back.